Eric Lindstrom books in order

Parker Grant doesn't need perfect vision to see right through you. That's why she created the rules: don't treat her any differently just because she's blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances.

When Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart, suddenly reappears at school, Parker knows there's only one way to react - shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough to deal with already, like trying out for the track team, handing out tough-love advice to her painfully naïve classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn't cried since her dad's death.

But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened - with both Scott and her dad - the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem.

Not If I See You First illuminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.

"How can you have a future if you can't accept your past?"

Mel Hannigan doesn't have it easy. Mourning the death of her firework of a brother, trying to fit back into a school she's been conspicuously absent from and struggling to deal with the loss of three friendships that used to mean everything. Struggling to deal with a condition that not even her closest friends know about.

So Mel tries to lock away her heart, to numb the highs and lows, to live quietly without hope - but also without pain. Until someone new shows her that it can be worth taking a risk, that opening up to life is what can make it glorious....

And that maybe Mel can discover a tragic kind of wonderful of her very own.